Sorrow

Yesterday, the longest strangest day of my life
hospital all day we stayed with her
my dear aunt margaret
me..my mom..cousins..aunt jo
all with her not knowing
this would be the last day of life

She passed away
i watched as death came
it happen so quick 1 minute she was lucid
and next she was gasping for air
could not breath struggling
as i called for the nurse
"please help my aunt she is in distress"
her face was the face of death i saw it
i saw it coming and could do nothing
my mother cradled my aunt in her arms
asking her sister not to go..please stay
please breathe..my mom pleaded

Code blue on the loud speaker
people strangers in blue and white coats
running to her room
machines...orders...mayhem..running
security guards pushing us aside
"u must leave the room"
we obeyed..stunned..crying..overwhelmed

As we wait outside her room door shut
blue and white coats inside
we know what is happening we just cannot accept
hope its what we do hope
we call family members alert them of what
just took place as they are needed
she is leaving us

We wait....

A lady in a white coat comes out of the room
towards us with a lady in a blue coat they walk
over to us not in urgency no more running
they stand in front of my mother who proudly states
margaret is my sister
she said i am dr. somebody (i can't remember)
"we tried all we could but we could not get her back
i am sorry she is goneeeeeeeeeeeeee"
"her heart was not strong enough"
my cousin asking dr. somebody if her mother
is dead please answer me is my mother dead
dr. somebody "yes"

It is strange how your body goes limp
nothing is clear nothing makes sense
u want to scream "no" but nothing
comes out only sobs sobs sobs

84yrs of life gone she is no more
this special person my aunt
who was always there for me
laughed with me shared her thoughts we me
i will miss her so much
peace i will give her now to be the people
who have left before her i am in hopes
that her son Raymond my cousin met her
and brought her with him to be safe
i must think that way as i dont want her
to be scared.

I kissed her goodbye..body still warm
her family was all around her we were
telling her goodbye holding her hand
stroking her face giving her
love the love that she taught us.

Next three days
funeral services will held
i must be strong but i
can't promise i feel i
will lose it as i loved her so much
next three days

death comes fast
beware