"Road"

Its hard somtimes
to balance all
life has many roads
to travel it depends
on which 1 u choose

Sometime we don't
get to choose
just happens and we
go with flow

Living home
w/my parents
was not to be
not planned
it just happen
the road i took
did i choose or
did i go with flow
don't have a answer

My brother
gone away
to live on his own
by himself
left his wife
my dearest friend
the 1 i call my sister
their three boys
amazing they all r
he left them 2
i cannot understand
how can 1 do that
his road to travel

I could not imagine
leaving my family
i would not be
if not for them
perhaps the road
i did choose
is the 1 for me
i just don't know it yet

As we grow
in school we learn
from a book
the teacher gives on
instructions
teaches us well
we learn

The rules of life
is in no book
it happens
a road
and you follow
hoping your taking
the right road
never knowing
in advance

good or bad

Love

I can't explain
in my heart
how it beats
for one

No matter what i do
how long
time goes by
it beats for one

Sad
most of the time
as it just cannot be
and then i say
love
i know what it is
my life i found love

Some don't know
the true love
they just exist
they just think

Even tho
it beats for one
its mine
to cherish
as i know
love
i live it daily

He knows
i know
someday
just not now

18yrs

Its been so long
it went so fast
02/22/88
a date I could never forget
love unknown first love
butterflies my stomach
need urge want
gasp for breathe
can't live without

The love has grown
a different love
love no matter what
the small stuff
does not matter
as it so did before

Sad, however
still apart
after all this time
i try to remember
these years gone by
and i can only live
in the moment
as nothing
has turned out as planned

No marriage, No children
45 and single just me
all because of that
first love
and those butterflies
that still fly thru
all the time

The want still there
just different
the urge just as strong

Will it ever be
i still hope
it gets me thru

And when the butterflies
come i remember
feel safe and warm

Hope

Brrrr!

Today has been quiet
lots of down time
which is so
what is needed
every now and then

Cold outside
coat..gloves..scarf
must keep warm

My friend
not feeling well
i worry alot
not sure
what the problem is
doctors appt on tuesday
i will cross my fingers
that all goes well

Mom since before
superbowl has
had a problem
with her knee
doctor said
her hip is in bad shape
pain in knee..but it is her hip
hmmmm...
MRI needed to find
exactly what is wrong
just more to worry about

At least today
was stress free
tomorrow another day
an another after that

brrrrr!
cold outside

Blizzard of 06

Oh boy
snow snow snow
all day
white outside
20inches
to much to handle
to much to shovel

Dad
early am
calls the "the plow guy"
landscaper in the summer
"the plow guy" in the winter
please come and plow
he will come later

Dad
waits and waits
pacing pacing pacing
same all day
looks out the window
waits and waits
frustrated cranky he becomes
call someone else
he yells
be patient i say
holding my tongue

Patience is something
he cannot comprehend
82 he is

Finally 7:30pm
"the plow guy" arrives
dad gives instructions
10minutes
all is clear
our driveway we
can now see

"The plow guy"
leaves
dad gives him smile
and waves
all he says is
thanks...send me a bill
he does not address him
as he does not know
his name

Stressful day I had
my dad
will drive
anyone
bonkers

He is my
dad
thank god he is here

Olympics

Always feel nostalgic
when the Olympics
are here

Proud of the US of A
love all the fit
and trim athlete's

Opening ceremonies
fire torch's
lite the way

I root for us
the entire time
don't understand
all the technical stuff
but root all the same

Italy so happy to have
the grand Olympics
in their country
green white and red
the flags they hold
proudly

Mrs. Loren
is there for her
country
as Italy
is her heart
her country
the same for me
as I believe
in my country

US of A
with all its problems
politics and corruption
I still believe

Good Luck
athlete's
bring home some
medals

Saturday Nite

Rainy saturday nite
cold and gloomy
looking forward to spring
three more months to go
can't come fast enough

Went out to dinner
with mom and dad
just us three
as I am single
and my parents
are getting older
my wanting to spend
time with them
increases
after dinner
for ice cream we went
dad paid
felt like a child again

Mom not feeling well
"my knee hurts"
she said
hard to walk
constant pain
arthritis
she is 74
it happens
i worry

Superbowl party
tomorrow
my mom is hosting
20 or more people
she will do all
thru pain
amazing she is

I am greatful everyday

Dad mom and me
us three

1st Of The Month

hmmm
sometimes I just
blink and months
have past
I try to think back
on my doings
for the month
and all gets blurred

why is it the older
you get the quicker
time goes by
I am in hopes
time will go by
a little slower
so I can absorb more
as I so want more

more of what
not really sure
just more